Why do I suddenly just not care about religion of any kind?

I just truly cannot be bothered at the moment. I can think of nothing that inspires me, nothing that draws me nearer and nothing that excites me about my path or any other at the present!!

The thought just hit me like a freight train a few seconds ago, that it's all a load of crap! Why am I wasting my time trying to believe stuff that is beyond my believing?

What am I DOING?!?!?!

Fair play to all those that can believe, that find something to actually believe in... I can't anymore. Even the festivals don't hold any special meaning for me anymore (if they ever did)... Mabon is in three days and I couldn't care less about it.

Maybe it's these painkillers I've taken, or maybe they are just letting me see my true feelings on this matter... without my seeming to hide them and say and do that which seems to be expected of me. Who knows? I don't anymore.